In bed with the moon flower, contradict the nestling...

Yesterday was turbulent to say the least. A boring and tedious day at work intertwined with immense worry about Karen's flight being canceled/missed/etc lead into a great evening out at the InMe gig. They were great! It was cool seeing as I first got into them when they hit the big time rather than finding them years later.

Anyway, I need to do some stupid spreadsheets today and get clothes and stuff packed for Karen and myself for the next week. I hope she's OK. I am going down to meet up with Karen's Dad tomorrow and then were driving to Heathrow tonight and staying in a hotel ready to meet Karen once she lands at 0625 (eek!) and then driving straight to Preston. I am so relieved she's not going to be stuck out there.

I think I may wander into town in a bit to go and buy a photography book.

You amaze me more than you could know, and I need you all the time, laying stars you make me dream of bliss, and I've loved you all the time...

Karen comes home in less than 48 hours!!

I can't wait to meet her at the station. :)

Work has been incredibly boring this week and I have been very lonely but I shall be seeing Paul and Bryan and Matt tomorrow when we go to see InMe which is going to be ace. Their new albums is really good! I very much like it. I am listening to it repeatedly in order to learn it for tomorrow night. =P

I can't wait to go to the lodge with Kazz, its going to be a great week, even if the weather is pants and we don't do anything I'll still be with her...

The email she sent last night made me feel unbelievable, I've never felt so loved. I am truly truly blessed to have her. I can't be more amazed at what God has given me. She's everything to me.

I am getting excited about the start of the school term too! Boulders starts next weekend which is going to be great to get back in there with new kids and new team! Hopefully God will provide us with an amazing program of stuff to follow and that we will be able to have a really great time with the kids.

I am going to head into town to shoot for a bit and to pick up train tickets.

I am so excited about Saturday!

And without you is how I disappear...

I feel pretty rubbish today.

Kazz is having the time of her life and all I can do is mope about here and think how much I am missing out on. I really dislike myself at this moment in time.

Work is going almost as badly, what with things being repaired and not being able to get the right stuff in today.

I feel so alone.

Hier kommt die Sonne, Sie ist den hellste Stern von allen...

Heutzutage werde ich auf Deutsch bloggen.

Ich werde nach York später fahren und dann werde ich nur drei Tagen von Arbeit diese Woche. Ich bin sehr aufgeregt, weil Karen zurückkommen am Samstag wird. Ich hoffe dass sie Spaß nach Borneo hat und ihren Rückflug pünktlich ist!

Es macht Spaß, dass ich dennoch auf Deutsch typen kann trotz zwei Jahren ohne Stunden!

Ich will nach Deutschland mit Karen fahren, denn wir konnten den Weihnachtsmarkt besuchen!

Ich möchte Karen in meinen Armen für immer und ewig halten...

I need your grace to remind me to find my own...

I have had a good weekend with my family. Its been a welcome distraction from missing Karen; not that I'm not missing her still though. I hope she's OK, she hasn't emailed for a couple of days.

JB and I went to Strada to eat on Friday which was very nice although the pizzas were a bit cold. Then we tried to go and see Kung Fu Panda but it wasn't on despite what the Odeon website said hmph. Anyway we went and watched Star Wars: The Clone Wars, it was OK. The dialogue wasn't brilliant but the animation and action were pretty good. It was too much like watching a video game on a cinema screen though.

On Saturday we went to Magna which was pretty good! Seeing the steel furnace show was very impressive and the pavilions were fun. I liked the water one unsurprisingly and enjoyed playing with locks and the largest rubber duck I have ever seen!

After this we attempted to find GO Outdoors to get me some new shoes and trousers. It seemed simple enough but I managed to miss the turning and get caught up in the one way system and end up heading out into the Peak District. Oops. Anyway we eventually found it and I got some snazzy trousers that may match a certain pair of Karenstickalaren's and some cool trainers.

It was nice to stay in and cook with my bro and to chill out and just watch telly and be lazy.

On Sunday we got up late and my parents came up from Nottingham to pick JB up and take us out for lunch. We went to Aunt Sally's and had Sunday lunch, yay! Mum and Dad had been to a BBQ at the Wrinklies' house the night before and apparently my Uncle and Grandpa were a little worse for wear. I always miss the good nights out. =P We heard about my cousins' new guinea pigs and I educated my mum about minipigs.

JB told me that Dad is keen to buy my camera next summer for him which may mean I upgrade sooner than planned. Not sure how that will be funded but oh well. I have now started checking lens prices, oh dear. I think going through Heathrow on the way to Africa is going to be the cheapest way of doing it. The only draw back is having a brand new camera with me but if this is how it occurs then I should hopefully pick stuff up quickly in the field.

I can't wait until next Saturday to be reunited with my muffin. I hope she is OK and her work is going well. I really miss her. I am very excited about going up to the lodge with her and just going out walking and shooting or even staying in and shooting hehe.

It's a mere 6 days. in fact less than that, until I see her again.

I hope this week is easier.

A friend in need's a friend indeed, a friend with weed is better...

I am not feeling good. I've had a boring week and realise that I don't really speak much at all if I am not talking to Karen.

I feel really bad. I wish she hadn't gone. I hate myself for thinking that. I hate that I feel so jealous, that I feel like I am missing out on an opportunity and for thinking she's forgotten about me. I hate it. Its making me feel even worse.

Work has been frustrating this week, turf has taken ages to come in and then to take off the conveyor and my cables haven't been long enough etc...

I want this to be over so badly. I feel so left out.

I think I have pulled a muscle in my lower back too as it hurts every time I stand up. I'll get it checked out at the doctors if its bothering me in a few weeks once I have time.

I've been trying to calculate an estimate of what going to Africa is going to cost next year. I am currently up at the £2000 mark and that's without any camera gear sadly. I can't not buy a long lens as that's the point of going to Africa from my point of view; seeing and photographing animals and having a great time with Karen.

I pray she is safe.

When you're all by yourself, standing on the edge of the world...

I dropped Kazz off at the station earlier. Very sad. I am going to miss her so much, hopefully these next two weeks will fly by and we can look forward to a week in the lakes and get planning Africa.

I have just spent a hectic week on the clearing helpline. Thursday was understandably pandemonium but its been an enjoyable experience. I like being nosey and getting to help people at the same time.

I now feel shattered though although I probably want to sleep to make the 29th come sooner.

I shall put some more photos on my pBase account to entertain myself.

We watched the Olympic rowing and cycling this morning which was awesome, the men's coxless fours was very nerve racking but we eventually won although a bit of drama made the victory more impressive!

I have a million things to do whilst Kazz isn't here but I don't want to do any of them and just be a big lazy.

I hope she is safe.

I'm the one who gets away, I'm a New Jersey success story...

Its been a hectic couple of days at work. Cooler being awkward, hard time to get pallets moved.

Last weekend was good, went to Karen's and just relaxed. We saw Dark Knight on Saturday which was great!! And went to world of water on Sunday which was just plain amusing. I want a fountain purely to annoy Karen tehehehehe.

I'm feeling rather lonesome and can't wait to get home to somewhere that's my own!

I finally gave in and got a pbase account so I have something to occupy myself with at work.

Karen and I are doing the Clearing Helpline next week which shall be fun and I am so pleased I get to spend the week with her before she flies to Borneo. Its going to be tough but I'll try very hard not to insane or buy a D300.

I am loving looking at Africa stuff with her, we've pretty much decided on what tour we want to do. We just need to book it, and flights and get everything else. Oh and earn the money for it!