This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption...

I feel pretty drained, which I guess isn't too surprising considering its twenty to one in the morning. I'm trying to stay awake to watch some of game 6 of the Stanley Cup finals. I'm not sure whether I'll make it as faceoff isn't until one. I'm glad I'm at home but still wish I was back in Sheffield; life seems to be much less complicated when Karen and I are together and able to talk properly. I ate more cake earlier; it was a snail cake and was mega tasty! I'm rather looking forward to getting stuck into a new project and a new challenge next year. I just hope that my relationships will be as strong as they are now in twelve months time. I feel really attached to Karen. We've spent two and a half years knowing each other and my university career to date is exclusively intertwined with her. That's something that I don't want to change or give up on. I want things to work, and I am determined to make them work. I don't want this opportunity to be happy to pass me by.

Since finishing exams on Friday I haven't really done much, which suits me fine. I went into town and met Karen, we then had lots of fun out in Bia Hoi eating tasty Thai tapas and drinking funky cocktails! Saturday was slightly more hectic as I managed to pack up pretty much all of my room for dad to take home on Sunday. We went out to eat at ASK which was much nicer than I remembered and I would definitely go back and eat more cheesecake because it was amazing!

Sunday was my fake birthday party, we had a wet BBQ and played Taboo. I really enjoyed having people round to my house and am slightly disappointed that I hadn't done it before! Maybe next year I shall invite more people over when Karen comes to visit. I now own 14 sausages to eat before I leave for London but I do like a challenge! I think a giant toad in the hole is called for. I also have an obscene amount of pasta and spaghetti to get rid of. Some tuna and a lasagne. Its going to be a fat two weeks when I get home. =P

Maybe that's what I need as I'm not too sure what food I am going to eat in Morocco for two whole weeks. Apart from the nourishment based issue I am really looking forward to experiencing another culture, seeing a totally different landscape and spending two weeks with Karen in another continent! I'm a bit nervous regarding the camel ride as I'm not the greatest fan of heights (camels are really tall!) and haven't ever been horse riding. It could be an interesting and potentially bum numbing few hours on my trusty steed! Hopefully I will be able to take my camera on the camel to get some interesting pictures! I really want to get some good shots to make large prints and put them on my wall, hopefully I shall take some great photos of Karen and I because I love using them as bookmarks. Its really cute to see her sweet little face every time I open a book. =)

I think we should be close to opening faceoff at the Mellon arena so I'm going to snuggle down in bed and try not to fall asleep too soon so I can at least see some of the game!

Why do I have to fly over every town up and down the line...

I am currently looking at a variety of border collies attempting to pick out my favourite thus condemning myself to another type of dog that we're going to have!

I have spent five hours on the internet today, no wonder work goes so slowly. I really really need to decrease the amount of time I spent procrastinating, its genuinely worrying me. I'm pretty worried about next year now, I really want to get onto a masters course and give myself a much better idea of what I want to do for a PhD but I am scared I won't make it. At least Karen is definitely going to be in Sheffield next year which is great for her. There's not much I can do about it now short of apply for as much as possible and hope and pray!

We are planning Easter at the moment, I am super excited about going to the lakes and getting some peace and quiet away from city life. Getting up early and walking the dog, taking too many photos and eating lots of tasty tasty foodies! Then I get to spend a week or two at home and do such fun activities like going to the dentist and playing on guitar hero. Karen will be coming to visit which is great, I really like going out and about in Durham with her, I find places that I haven't explored before, mostly coffee shops but I like cake so it's hunky dory!

This Friday it is Karen's birthday and I need to finish sorting out her present. I am also making an AMAZING cake on Thursday which is a super secret design, photos will be posted. I may set up my camera on timer mode (so, so sad!). We're hopefully going for a walk in the peaks on Friday which will be great if the weather is good and a pub tea is always a winner in my eyes. =P

I finally finished reading the New Testament last night so will start the Old and see if I can get through it in less than 6 months. I've really enjoyed doing the reading so far, its given me many hopeful and reassuring thoughts.

I should really go to bed soon as I need to be up bright and early ready for dissertation reading.

Love will come set me free, I do believe...

I almost feel like I am on top of work for once today, despite doing very little over the weekend. We had a fun time on Saturday at Varsity Ice Hockey with amazing hot dogs and a pretty good game. Then we met up with Chris and co for his birthday which had hilarious consequences as per usual. Although cocktails and shots are not the drinks of choice when leading a group of 7-9 year olds! We played cards and Karen and I won at poker, however I think Chris being inebriated and apathetic helped slightly. We then had a massive game of cheat which I won with minimal cheating and correct subversion of my general persona.

Karen thinks I use big words in the wrong context because my Dad is left handed and the language centre in the brain is in the left hand side (or something like that!). She's probably correct and I refuse to give up showing off my immense lexicon (see what I did there?).

Karen and I baked cakes on Saturday which was good fun and really cheered us both up I think. We need to do more baking I have decided. Whilst my waistline would suffer its a sacrifice I am willing to make! I even attempted to "beat" the mixture which I spectacularly failed at until some careful tuition from my hairy baker. ;)

Sunday was good fun despite the initial headache. The kids at church were incredibly well behaved and I think we really got through to them for once. I have a few weeks off now which I am looking forward to being in Church either in Sheffield or at home.

I get some peace and quiet tomorrow as Karen is going out for Katie's birthday. I am going to cook some amazing bacon sandwiches, maybe with egg, and edit some photos once I have finished my work. I may even watch a DVD if I am feeling daring!

Our lives look smaller now...

I went home this week and surprised my mum on her birthday tehe. I even baked a cake which was rather tasty if I don't say so myself!

We went to the airport to drop my bro off before he flew to South Africa on his expedition and then went to Alnwick Gardens which was a lovely day out even though my camera battery died. They even bought me lunch and a cake from the cafe in the afternoon. ^_^

Met up with Paul last night before coming home to Sheffield. Had a good chat about exams and summer and stuff. Nice to catch up with old friends.

Kazz is taking me to London tomorrow which is going to be superamazingwickedawesome. We are going to the Natural History museum and I am very excited!

Tonight were going to a bbq and then back to Karen's to find her railcard and chill out.

I must plan for Church on Sunday!

I promised you a heart...

Another sunny day. Roller disco was awesome, although my ankles are paying for it this morning!

Only 1 day to go until the ball. ^_^

I made more mars bar cake too! I shall put a photo of it up later.

Made me laugh.Also worth a mention.

Its in the blood...

Massive gym session. Shattered.

Lunch at church and then cake making! ^_^

Update: Gorgeous day, able to walk around in shorts and t-shirt and still feel hot!

Rather excited about roller disco later! =D