I've been locked inside this house with all my insecurities, and I've been trying to get out and all the while you hold the key...

I am halfway through my final exams ever (hopefully!). I have two more to go, one on Monday, which I am dreading, and one on Friday which I am almost looking forward to. I cannot wait to be free to do the million things I've not been able to do for weeks now! I want to stay up late and get up later, go to the park and play in the sun, take a ridiculous number of photos and eventually edit them and most of all I want to spend every moment of every day with my beloved!

Karen finishes on Monday the lucky so and so. But more importantly she's going puppying tomorrow. I hope that this little guy is a good fit for her and her mum (and Chippa actually!), as I think it would be really really beneficial for Karen to be there at the start of the house-training regime sort of thing. Mostly in preparation for our own little pup but also to help her mum. =P

I am shattered, even though today I have eaten more chocolate and drank some Co-op brand red bull I'm really looking forward to sleeping tonight. Hopefully I can get up nice and early and have a bash at a bit more revision before church tomorrow. I'm going to stop by Karen's for puppy day hugs yay! I shall also take my camera and hopefully get some good wide angle shots of outside the church.

Anyway off to bed for me!

Opinions are immunity to being told you're wrong...

I went to church today and listened to Ben and Rick speak about growing fruit from your relationship with God and that bad things in your life will be pruned away if you ask God for help. I feel like a bit of pruning, particularly in my devotion of time would be very much appreciated!

Tuesday is my first exam (oh to be able to cut that out of my life =P) and I'm nervous yet not too scared, I feel ok and hope that a good question comes up. Doing the external reading of some funky papers has been way more useful than the lecture notes I made. Maybe I'm now getting to grips with reading for my degree, ah well better late than never.

I'm processing a few HDRs (my new favourite photography play thing), I really like the effect although it does make me want a tripod to try out night time shots. This summer I hope to get some really good photos of Chippa, probably in the Lakes as I think I may have to get good at dog shots for the future. =P I'd also like to have a real good go at some landscapes in the Lakes, I may even climb a mountain to pursue such an idea!

I'm really feeling attached to Sheffield at the moment, maybe its because I will be leaving for my MRes. I feel very connected with church and the general atmosphere, I didn't quite anticipate this when applying four years ago. I really hope I can come back here for some if not all of my life...

We control the chaos, at the back of our minds...

Now everything is handed in and revision is in full swing. I have had a nap today which was rather pleasant and went to the gym with Karenstickalaren. I am currently printing out notes, all 28 pages of sex and reproduction.

I'm feeling pretty drained and really can't wait for the year to end, although its scary that it will be over so soon! I found out that I got my first choice accommodation site yesterday so I will be in a good place, near the department and the gym which is cool! I am beginning to get a bit more excited about next year now that I can feel it getting closer. Hopefully I will have a good relax in the summer and not be moving around too much so I'm not overwhelmed by snails next year.

I don't really have anything else to write as all I do is coursework and revise now which isn't fantastic! I could blog about cooperation and conflict or sex and reproduction but I don't think I could actually write much. Doesn't bode well for next week eh?

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all, and sometimes I wonder why I'm even here at all, but then you assure me...

I am up waiting for an email of my dissertation feedback which I may or may not finally receive today. I'm not impressed at all with the timing. Hopefully I will have to email the correct people and tell them to bin my angry email, also any feedback I eventually do get will say its fine nothings wrong.

The exam and coursework deadline based panic is in full swing at the moment. Exams start a week tomorrow but at least I will be in nice exam halls that are close to uni. Revision is ok and preferable to being sat in front of the computer all day. I can't wait until its all over, only 17 days to go! I hope I don't mess up an exam.

Anyway onto more important stuff. Karen is getting a new puppy, so I now have the perfect excuse to buy MORE camera gear. In other words, I'm really pleased, I can't wait to see her get far too excited about the poor little thing. Hopefully Chippy will be ok with the little cutie too! I hope I get to help name it as well, I think that would be fun although it may make me look like a less eligible son-in-law if my contributions are hilarious (which they no doubt will be!).

I have just got my feedback section. Hallelujah. Shame its Tuesday.

I want to stay at home for the end of the world, falling asleep when their dropping the bomb...

Its so so near to the end. Everyone can feel it coming but no one is there yet. The cycle of wake, revise, eat, revise, eat, sleep has begun. I can remember feeling like I wanted to escape around this time in year 13. It seems very weird that I could ever think about getting out of here, but I am really looking forward to finishing. I wonder if it would be different if I were doing the level four course instead of being nervous about making friends in a new place next year?

I applied for accommodation yesterday, I went for a large single room in Broadgate Park as my first choice. Sadly my parents weren't prepared to pay just under £6k for a studio room which is a shame although understandable I guess. =P Now I am worried about not getting on with my flat mates as I wasn't asked any personality questions like when I applied for undergrad. I'm looking forward to taking the year and getting ready for a PhD, I really hope I can do what I want. Its going to be tough work wise let alone being away from Karen. Fortunately we should see each other every weekend which will be good.

We are putting off thinking about exams, coursework and dissertation by finalising our holiday arrangements in Morocco. Changing money seems like a pain but we can't do it until we are in Morocco which I guess will be fine. The hotel we are staying in looks cool, even better is that its next to a mega expensive one so we can sneak in and use their pool, tehe. I can't wait to go, its going to be a whole new culture, probably a bit of a shock really! Hopefully we will meet some really great people and have an unforgettable experience. I'm looking forward to taking photos to document our adventures. I will do my best not to get carried away and make the most of seeing things with my own eyes not through a camera lens though.

I'm going to bed now, absolutely shattered and have to be up to have another crack at my BMS revision tomorrow. =S

There must be a guardian angel, or some kind of destiny we have...

I have been a busy revision bee hence my lack of blogging. I am currently half way through my (two) exams. I finish on Monday and cannot wait! Molecular ecology went as expected, not great but good enough. Hopefully I will have a good mark to improve on my coursework mark. Monday is ethics which on first impressions was far too deep for little me and my unphilosophical nature. However the concepts we are talking about are actually interesting! Woe is me. =P

Karen insisted that we went for a walk up to Bole Hill on Thursday to escape from revision for a bit. It was a definite Godsend and it was wonderful to just be outside for an extended length of time. I got to play with my camera on the tripod a bit. I was surprised how stable it is considering I got it from Jessops for 12.50. I shall be looking at my shots in a bit and may even post one! I really wished we had set up for a shot of us doing the Titanic pose on a picnic bench overlooking the North-east of Sheffield. Hopefully we shall get another chance to do it!

Tomorrow is going to be terrifying! Apparently we could have up to 50% more children than usual. I can't deal with 8 never mind 12!!!!!! Muchos prayer shall be occurring. I think I am secretly looking forward to it as I want to do some fun drama and play more games to keep the little darlings entertained.

I've been feeling incredibley close to Kazz recently (yes even more so!), a lot of talkings of engagement, weddings, dogs and babies has occurred. Normally this should make a man run away and hide in a shed with some tools and a project however I do not own a shed so this has been impossible! Yet that response hasn't even threatened to be elicited in me, hence I am thinking this is a bit of a hint that we're pretty serious. =)

I made an exciting pasta bake thing with a tomatoey cheesey sauce which was pretty damn nice! I think I shall take a walk to Tesco once I have finished exams to get a lasagne and maybe a canneloni if I am feeling frivilous. A new Nisa has opened literally 2 minutes from my house which is very exciting for all! The prospect of incredibley cheap wine and suspect looking cheese warms the cockles of my heart.

Time for photo editing!

Were leaving ground, will things ever be the same...

It will all be over soon. I really can't wait. Then after the days dragging by it'll suddenly be Saturday and I shall be going to Portugal.

Can't wait for a break. I am so tired and bored of exams, revision etc...

I can't wait to hug and cuddle for allllllllll day again. ^_^

I didn't get chance to blog yesterday alas, I spent the entire time with Karen in on and around her bed revising and talking. She's ace. We had such good fun and ever were productive. She means the world to me...

Its a long way to the top if you want to rock and roll...

Crazy day. First my glasses break just before my exam and I stress but it goes rather well and I manage to get them fixed. Then into town to order some prescription sunglasses (designer frames ooh er!) and euros. Subway lunch and back to Karen's to watch Blue Planet. Were such geeks! I even managed to clean the shower and not die.

Pens won in triple OT last night and take the series to a game 6. Its going to be interesting...

I saw this and it reminded me of chemistry lessons at A level. Such a long time ago...

Every little thing she does is magic...

Second exam. Palaeobiolgy. Much better. Feel OK about it.

Next up evolution on Tuesday.

I really really want my camera lens to get here so I can at least get a bit of practice before Portugal.

Pie and STP at Karen's tonight! Yay. I'm so lucky. ^_^

Also things are looking good for my summer job. Have finally heard a bit more info and should be talking to the head lawn geezer soon!

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain...

First exam today, Cell Signalling. Went OK hopefully will have surprised myself in a good way.

Really not into palaeo revision tonight. Just can't focus.

Can't wait until Tuesday for a bit of a breather.

Pens beat Redwings last night back in Pittsburgh, finally we have a series!

Loose lips may sink ships...

Miserable day today, torrential rain, stuck in a cloud.

This is how I wish it looked outside my window but it doesn't.

Wings @ Pens game 3 tonight, hopefully they'll win to make the finals more interesting.

Tomorrow is my first exam. BMS215 Cell Signalling. I am not looking forward to it.

Hopefully it will go well and I shall be able to concentrate on Friday and Tuesday.



This is cool.